how can they love someone who's so tiring to be with

how can they love someone who doesn't first accept herself

i want to tear my soul out of this cage, contracting, tensed
can't think at all or be productive in this state.

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stay strong.
give me the permission to break apart for a little while

and then i will be strong.

no, hold yourself together.

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your absence is something i can only accept.
emotions are pointless. devastating. pointless.